Stephen For many people (including me ) grief / shock etc what what triggered gambling addiction. In truth , it would be next to impossible for treatment to succeed while your mother was going through treatment – because it would be the wrong time to give up your escape . It is still a difficult time for you because you are grieving . For too long we (yes all of us compulsive gamblers ) have gambled to escape feeling what we found too hard to feel. Guilt is often a part of grief – if you had visited your mother every day you would still feel guilty. If you had been by her bedside night and day you would still feel guilty. Grief is horrible and losing a parent feels like we are having our guts wrenched from our bodies – it hurts too much . Perhaps pick up the phone to Cuan Mhuire and see if here is any follow up you can do . I feel you are ready to stop . I feel you are dealing with so much right now it will be good for you to get help. Your brother has reached out to you but he is grieving too . You will get there Stephen . You will do it this time . GOd will help you .
