Great to hear your story i also just added mine so thought i should read another also
You seem intelligent and are almost winning. However you’re addicted and almost winning isn’t enough. The bookies have a massive department of statistics, mega-computers and boffins that will always have the edge. I once worked in a bookies head office ive seen it, its not a rumour!
You’re interested in and excited by the skill and choices of choosing complex bets, you’re probably better than most at it. But the common-sense part of your brain is screaming ‘wtf you’ve lost the plot!..it wasn’t meant to be like this’ and it sounds like you’re coming around to see sense.
Everything else will slot more into place when you admit that betting is in your case only ever going to loose you money in the long run. Forget that battle – admit defeat.
The time we put into problem gambling is so mis-managed. Time will be more productive when we focus on other more genuine past-time and ways of making money?
wish you all the best