[i’m_free]

For a split second I had a opening to drive to the casino. It’s Sunday. I was on my way to get groceries or go to a farmer’s market. I went for groceries instead of the farmer’s market. I did not drive to a casino. It’s very early in my ‘new’ recovery’. For as split second it seemed like there was an opening in my brain to drive to a casino. There were no thoughts or images just some opening like a program … yep kinda like a program. It starts like that, as an almost un noticed impulse then it grows. I want to say HEY I noticed that little spark of an old program and extinguish it.  I’m not up for that spark to start a wild fire of destruction again.  NOPE.  odaat.  Star