Dear diary
I have met 2 speakers in the 12 steps recovery program in the past. Both have more than 20 years clean days in recovery.
One will boost to us how successful multi-millionaires or company CEOs will seek him for advise, he would tell us how he went for AA convention and many from oversea would like to invite him for lunch or dinner just to get near and talk to him, but he is not interested. He ever shared about acting out in other ways but his clean days in AA continues. He smokes.
The other one would always say that it is very flattering for him, he does not know why he deserve all these praise as he feel very unworthy (the glory goes to God), he is grateful for all the good things. He believe in living a total abstinent life in NA. He gave up smoking.
How many times have I heard man who think they are better than everyone, so full of self glory, self ambition, critical, judgmental, unforgiving, uncaring and unloving.
I find that the man who relied on God’s word found in the bible when he teaches was more consistent. Their sharing was based on biblical teaching, it was all about following God ‘s way and not their way, it was the same yesterday and today. It has stood the test of time. These people are taught not to seek self- glory.
I was much worst than the first person yet I don’t want to grow to be like him, I wish to be like the second person.
I am walking down a different street now. Everything is so new to me. I am taking baby steps. I don’t know what is God’s plan for me, but I am sure and believe it is good.
