sorry, to continue or clarify,
perhaps you can find some counseling re addiction through your university or mental health system. Gamblers Anonymous can be a very supportive place. To hear the words of people who know what it’s been like and have put it behind them can be helpful. And you find out that there are all different people from all walks of life that can become affected by this. You didn’t ask for this addiction. But you can ask for help. Look for people you trust to support you. Not everyone needs to know your issues and most wont understand. Surround yourself with a positive support network. Take care, Laura