It just that i got nothing else to do with my free time. I always gamble on the weekends when i got absolutely nothing to do. I try to sleep it out till the weekday when i go back to work but sometimes i kick back on twitch and watch a few streamers gamble and then get tempted to play myself.
But i think I’m done for real. I know how much worse this can get. I ended up closing my account for the online casino and IDebt payment account so there is no real way for me to play unless i contact support but even then its a 7 day wait period before it actually get unblocked. I did unblock it once, hopefully not again.
School is starting again and also bought a new pc setup so hopefully, my attention will be more towards gaming and not gambling. Let’s see how it goes but hopefully, i don’t pick up gambling again in the summer when I’m done school but its been a winter habit. I only started gambling with real money in December 2018. It’s been a rollercoaster and an interesting winter break.
In my head, its like when i need money, i depend on gambling. I need to change that mindset. Like i don’t know, another way you can make money online. I don’t know if this makes sense. I’m a student at the end of the day so I don’t have the time to be working full time. Might try to get a part-time job on the weekends hopefully to keep me busy on the weekends. Need new habit to keep me busy essentially. You guys did recommend a few stuff but it hard to adapt to a new habit/lifestyle i guess. I’m pretty sure it would have been worse if i haven’t had you guys tell the story you have. it kept me more in line and controlled rather going full tilt and etc. It could have been worse is what i tell myself.