I am so sorry that you couldn’t get past the urge last night. If you read my journal, you will see that I had to do the same thing that you are doing now. It’s sad that we have to hit rock bottom before we recognize that we have to ask for help. Telling was the hardest thing that I have ever had to do but it was the best thing that I could do for myself in order to truly start to recover. I don’t think anyone can be harder on us than we are on ourselves. It will get better – not quickly – but we need to realize that in letting it out in the open, there is a huge weigh lifted.
