Over the last 20 years, I saw myself struggling at workplace and leaving the job despite doing well at times
The recent experience in dieting saw me eating uncontrollably and unnecessarily a few times, it felt scary to be out of control in eating.
Drinking sound harmless to me until I drink to a point when I can no longer stop at will, and suffer all the consequences.
Gambling look harmless to me until I become angry, impulsive, impatient and compulsive and soon it turn into a all or nothing size bet.
My family has suffer with me for so many years, even with the new understanding, I do not know how to tell them what is happening to me.
They only knew I had an addiction and past depression issues, my effort in recent years has shown them that I was trying hard to improve and do something about it but I still find it hard to explain to them about my unpredictable behavior at times especially financially.
One mistake can take many months or years to recover or in the worst scenario, it cannot be repaired.
