[butchugly]

I feel empty a lot of the time. I feel I’ve lost my personality and my social skills outside of work and gambling. I’m slowly understanding that the music and the flashing lights, and features on slot machines have become my best friend/enemy. I still have friends but I feel lost when I’m with them. When I go out to dinner with my kids I talk to them but it feels like polite conversation.. As you would have with someone you’ve just met. I don’t quite know how to get that back. Real connections with humans.. Not machines