Hard time tonite, we have seperated so he can work on him but its hard…like all the messed up stuff he put me through is ok and now he’s the victim… idk maybe im being selfish or childish…was everything he’s done truly because of addiction..i’ve never known someone with an addiction close to me..im feeling insecure and unimportant…as he reassures kids he loves them im left wondering do you still love me…i discovered the gambling while we were having some really rocky times in our marriage and am left with the i need to fix me before we can try to fix us…but i feel thrown aside…i don’t want to get in his way of doing what he needs and is displaying what he truly wants to do…i know my counselor advises distance between us while he does this on our own but its hard to be away from someone you have been with for so long..
