Hi Guys,
Tx for the post pdc, glad to see you had a good holiday season.
Woke up early with many concerns today. Up at 5am with a nagging pain in my right hip/side. Back aching yesterday too. Got on the scale, MOST UNHAPPY there! Gaining weight, not like I am trying not to but d*mn it, all i have to do is eat a few junkie things and I have a massive weight gain ( OK, exaggerating there ) but for "normal" people they just don’t gain like I do. It makes me question my recovery. I have been told repeatedly don’t stress about your eating, don’t stress about your smoking. One thing at a time, give yourself a break.
If I just transition back to eating to build the "wall of fat" to hide behind then I have to question if I am really making progress or just kidding myself. I am frustrated, can you tell?
My gf is having a New Years Eve party. She is also "fixing me up" with a blind date for the event. I should be excited but I am almost dreading it. I am ashamed of my weight. I am thinking about backing out.
I’m going to make myself get up and move today. I think a workout may be out of the question. Think I’ll call the Chiropractor today and get a massage, that will help the hip a bit I think. A massage, maybe a pedicure ( I got a gift card for Christmas for that ), maybe a new "do". I have to do something to get out of this slump. Maybe I am sleep typing and this is all a dream.
catch u later
bettie
