So Sorry I missed you guys on the chat.
Most of the weekend went that way, everyone busy with holiday stuff i guess.
Jen has been here all evening, we talked about cg. Man, she doesn’t get it or I can’t explain it. She said her and the bf were talking about it and he doesn’t think this can be an addiction. So I explained the rush, the feelings, and so on. I told her I knew I had another bet but I don’t know that I have another recovery in me. She said, well, there’s just no need for that.
Well, I am a very good actress. I guess she didn’t see the depression, the sadness, the loneliness, the helplessness that all happened around her. She must think I like being here, alone, most nights of the week. I guess I’m blaming and thats not fair. I tried to be a good mom and protect her from my hurt and pain so I guess I did OK.
I am tired so maybe i’ll hit the hay.
Hope to catch u all soon!
peace
bettie
