Hi Guys,
Well things are on a bit more of an even keel for me. I did go to my meeting, I spoke with the party involved and I faced my fears straight on. That is a lesson I should have learned in kindergarten, and one I have learned the hard way as always "when wrong promptly admit it and make amends where possible".
I will save my venting to emails and not public forums-better for all involved.
I now see the Cg in me trying to really get my head in a different space. It’s looking for ways to break up my recovery and send me back to the gates of casino hell. If I think "every one dislikes me, I have no friends, the casino was always a place to go, "well there it is. CG logic i guess.
score
bettie 1 CG 0
Just another battle in the war. Nice to come out on the right side for a change.
Hope every one is having a gf weekend. Memorial Day holiday here so I am off Monday.
So tired, I have had a long day.
Liz just add it to the list, I try not to dwell too much on being sick. I feel good for the most part. Stopping smoking could put this thing in remission. I have been advised not to try stopping since I am so new to recovery but I think I am ready to give it a go. I just don’t want to gain weight. My Dr was talking insulin pump again and I want no part of that. A lousy 10 pound loss would go a long way toward getting my sugar back where it should be.
P i hope to see u again soon! Ditto to U Carole!
I should be posting but too sleepy now.
Hope to catch up soon.
peace
bettie
