Hello to all my defenders, super hero’s that you are!
Bettie, CG extraordinary here
I kinda like that intro!
Well, in all fairness, i was feeling especially sensitive when I posted. I have known since I started GA that they were very closed minded about anything that strays from the GA program. They achieved their recovery doing "just what the book says"- no deviation and no other interpretation allowed. I get this. I am also told rebellion to these idea’s is the illness trying to push you back into it’s arms! Well I get that too.
I just got home from my meeting tonight , got a 9 month key chain, felt stupid taking it after all, I only have "abstinence" but didn’t say anything. Then it happen. I was asked if I wanted to tell my story as a speaker at an upcoming meeting. I didn’t know what to say. I told her I needed to think about it and she said that was OK.
I think that is my biggest area of discontent, because even though I am just starting working the steps I sure as h*ll have been working MY recovery-even if it is not considered GA recovery and you know what? Thats OK. I don’t need approval I just need help. If I can be challenged to think in a different way, see what I have been blind to, face my fears, well it’s all good.
Funny that Larry quoited from his post in the topic groups. I just read that this morning, having whole heartedly agreed with every word he typed.
If it takes the rambling of a mad woman to get Jules up and posting well thats a good thing! love Ya Girl!
Tx Linnie, Lizbeth and Carole! Please don’t let me and my mouth turn you away from meetings. There is alot to be said about being in a room with your peers-and thinking to yourself "this person is even nuttier than me!" But on a serious note there but for the Grace of God…. because I see things I could have done, lines I could have crossed. As bad as it was it could have been so much worse. Lots of lesions to be learned for sure.
On a very sad note my neighbor- my brothers best friend, has been fighting lung cancer for a couple years. He called me from the hospital and it doesn’t look good for him. We talked for a while, he is mostly upset about leaving his 17 year old daughter with her alcoholic mother. Any one who prays please say one for my friend-a very sweet guy you would have been glad to know. He said he may come home with hospice care so I called my brother to see if he could come help me clean his place tomorrow-I have the key and will be taking care of his birds and mail.
peace
bettie
