Hi Bettie — Your posts made me cry today. What a lovely sensitive sweet lady you are. I can relate to so much of what you have been saying about feeling disconnected. My husband is right next to me and love is still elusive! I am trying hard to be in the here and now but I have so many practised years of shutting myself off it is not easy. What I know is I cant be content with hiding anymore. There is pain in this world but there is pleasure and love also. I guess you cant have one without the other. This morning I waved to a friend and they did not respond back. My first thought was they hate me. This is of course ridiculous. Its always been nice chatting to you and reading your posts — there is nothing there not to like bettie! Believe in yourself — stay strong 🙂 Pumkin
