Hi Guys,
Oh, it’s me! It’s all me.
I am so moody, maybe it’s just depression, I don’t know.
The statistics are pretty clear. 5% of people who go to GA are successful staying "clean", doing just exactly what the book says.
There is very little room for interpretation there.
My first meeting I was told , in reply to my tear filled therapy, since I mentioned I knew about the 20 questions then what was I doing there.
I am trying to decide what I want to do. See I’m still people pleasing, I don’t want this person mad at me, she’s done nothing wrong. Maybe I’m not ready to work the steps-according to their rules anyways.
I have gotten a lot from this sponsor. She is strong in her recovery. I still feel like an outsider, looking in. I’ve spent my whole life that way.
My "friend" took me to lunch today-surprise! I asked him what he did over the weekend, He told me a little of the good time he had with his friends at a local bar. Nice for him. Of course, I would never be included in something like that. I told him that really made me jealous, as he’s never included me in any gathering. He said next time he would. I won’t hold my breath.
P,there are plenty of GA groups I could try. I am just not inspired to try one.
Larry, if we stayed away from every place that had gambling I couldn’t buy gas or grocery’s, as they have lottery terminals there. All of our PC’s would have to go to the trash too.
As for your GA experience Carole I’m sure he was on an ego trip-and like my guy decided your fate for you. What a shame.
I hope to catch Lee in a bit. Thanks for your heartfelt responses. It makes me feel less lonely.
I’m still in a mood!
bettie– 5/26/2011 6:11:26 AM: post edited by bettie.
