Woke up wishing I was asleep today~lol!
I’m awake because I’m in pain as "Mother Nature" has taken it’s course and the devil horns are now back in my brain where they belong!.I swear, I’m calling my girlie Doctor and we are having yet again a very long talk. This has to stop, it’s the 21st century, there has to be a solution to this issue. I can’t walk around like a completely insane person reaping my own brand of grief to everyone 1 week every month!
So Thursday I did have a divine intervention. My girlfriend called, said "Oh did I wake you?" I said no and proceeded to cry like a 2 year old. She reassured me of how wonderful i am (lol!) and got me out of the house. We went for pedicures and I did pick out my paint for the kitchen. Went grocery shopping and went to the ice cream shop. Can you say Chocolate Brownie Sundae?
I really don’t know if I will make it to work, that waits to be seen. I’ve had about 5 hours sleep and I have my nieces birthday party @ 2pm. I am glad to report that I will be off (Officially-in writing this time!) the week after my birthday. I need to start taking down the things on the walls in the kitchen and start patching the walls. No simple job to paint in this place. My ceiling looks like it’s about to cave in. Nothing structural. I’ve had a few contractors here over the years and they say bad paint or no primer was used when this place was built in 1967. The paint pops and peals down to the drywall. I had a new ceilingg put up in the front room and hall 4 years ago and paid a fortune. I am a master patcher as I have patched every room in this place over the years but the patches will last about 2-3 years before new cracks take their place. Well no money for a contractor these days so I am on my own. I hate patching the ceiling! My neck hurts already!
I did get the apology from the "fwb" that I was looking for. It’s meaningless really, as he is incapable of human feelings being the jackass that he is, but at least I feel a bit vindicated. Well at least I did, until he came into my work and proceeded to ask me if I was gaining weight! I looked at him and told him to SHUT UP! My mom always said if you can’t say something nice then say nothing at all and that he would do well to take that advice! He tried some "oh i didn’t mean….." I cut him off-you could have said my hair looked nice or anything else so you better shut up while you’re ahead! I’m not having it today!
Thank you guys for you unending support. I do read every day but find myself slipping in the posting department.
I will see my niece today Lizbeth. I talked to my sister and social service are moving slow and they do not have health insurance right now. I have talked to my sister and she says my niece is doing OK. I will see for myself. I find I feel better having faced down those ghosts from the past. It hurts but it is helpful.
peace
bettie
