Hi Guys!
Hey Carole thanks for the inquiry. I’m OK-long day at work then GA. You are very brave to tell your story Carole. They say the truth will set you free-I hope it has for you.
We had a speaker and he made some really valid points. Good thing I believe in God because if I didn’t I would have run from the room. He talked about the steps and flat out said "higher power" is God, Period. I was not offended however, to me, that is closed mindedness. Some people do not, and GA claims no religious affiliation. Can’t help but wonder how I would have felt if I was Atheist.
He did talk alot about "surrender". Truly accepting that we are Cg’s, that we can never gamble again period. He said if we are struggling with urges it’s because we have not surrendered. Somewhere in our head we are telling ourselves the lie that we can go back, with some "control" or for "fun". I can see that. That makes sense. When I was very new in recovery I couldn’t imagine myself NOT going to the casino, what would I do instead? Now I just can’t see myself going back or being there. I would go mad standing in a casino today, because I can not control it, I never really could. So the next time I have an urge I guess I will I will remember that I have "surrendered".
I called my sister tonight. She said nothing is really going on yet. She talked to the pediatrician for a referral for my niece. I talked to her a bit more about the abuser. He has two grown kids whom he has no relationship with. I told her this may be why. He has also been left as babysitter for a young nephew. I am sure there will be some real horror stories that come out of this. So many victims. So much healing that needs to happen. God bless my niece for coming forward.
Well I should be going to bed.
peace
bettie
