Insomnia, isn’t it great! Got to 5.50am, and I thought might aswell have a coffee cant go to sleep now, promptly fell asleep waiting for the kettle to boil woke up half an hour ago! I rang my boss and told him a fib, I feel bad. But if I told him the truth; a sleepless night due to my weed withdrawal, I really dont think he would have been so understanding!
Its the first *** I can remember telling for months and I feel bad because of it, I hope by writing about it, it eases my conscience. I told him I had a doctors appt. at 5 past 10 to get some blood pressure tablets as I had none left, he has kindly given me the morning off.
So no turning back on the weed smoking now, actually I’m looking forward to not smoking it any more, although I think it will be very hard over the weekend. The good thing is I’m in Newcastle next week and when I return I’ll have had two weeks off so hopefully the insomnia will have gone by then.
A big bonus is my diet wont keep falling by the wayside. I have put on nearlry 2 stone, of the 4.5 I lost last year.
I have bought my ticket to get home on Monday. £15!!!! big difference to the £115 I paid two weeks ago.
Anyway cant sit here all day, hope everyone has a gamble free day, just a day without gambling, its no big deal, one day, we can all do that cant we!
It dosnt matter if youve got 25 years of clean days behind you or none, all any of us can do today is get through this one day. If you are struggling with urges and still tempted by gambling just ask yourself whats the worst that can happen if you dont get that bet placed.
Anyway cant afford to go on a "preaching one" I havnt got the time.
See you all soon. Geordie.I dont gamble.
