The best advice given to me when things were going pear shaped for me earlier this year, was exactley what youve just said, "grow up" . That advice came from a person I have the greatest respect for, I know that you have gained a great deal of self respect during your gambling free time, hopefully you will heed this advice.
Day 1 or day 1000 gunner it makes no difference, all any of us can do is get through today without gambling.
Its feels horrible and the future seems daunting I can imagine. I also imagine you know why it went wrong. Gambling is never fun for us is it. I think its twisted we can even kid ourselves it is . I dont know whats happenend to me but I just dont want to gamble and havnt felt like doing so for a long while, in the past when I’ve been a month or two into clean time I struggled with urges and the distorted thinking that gambling could be fun. I dont now. You have given great support to a lot of people including me, now is the time to accept as much back as you can. I am rooting for you mate.
Geordie.I dont gamble.
