Dear Kathryn
I am glad you have forgiven yourself. I know that if I had died when my CG was active I would hope that he would have forgiven himself. I think it is so sad that people carry the burden for something they can do nothing about. We cannot ever say ‘what if’ things had been different because they were not and such thoughts do us no good.
None of us get the chance, I think, to say all we would like to say to another and death is such a great divider. I know my parents loved me and I loved them but occasionally I cringe at the thought of some of my behaviour growing up and wish I could change it but I can’t. I know they would only have told me I was daft to worry as all they wanted was my happiness just as your sister would have wanted yours.
I would love to think that my family would think of my ‘departure’ with such thoughts as you have. If they raised a glass of Amaretto for me on my birthday I would like to think they knew I was happy for them.
I wish Neicy a happy birthday too and a special day for her kid sister who has come so far and of whom she would be very, very proud.
I will be thinking about you and Bailey tomorrow. I think it is great that you are ‘both’ looking forward to it.
With loads of love to a very special person and her beautiful boy.
V xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
