Have made some progress.
I have been lying to my mother everything, but now i spoke to her and said about my addiction. First she cried, but she was okay with it, i said i am meeting counselor and i am self excluded from everything. I understand that she doesnt trust me right now, but when time goes away and she is seeing that her bank account is okay and i dont have to ask money everyday and she can keep money to herself, she’ll be happier then.
Then i spoke with my best friends that i have this addiction and they wished me good luck for taking care of it. They were very supportive. I said and warned them that its madness, whats going through your head, when you are betting and betting.
Yesterday also made huge step, that i called 1 of many loan giver companies( dont know else how to say it 😀 ) and made payment plan. Now i have to do 7-8 calls more. Tough and embarrassing to me. I got a plan for how i do it, i hope everything is going as i planned.
Got my mom bank account also covered. I spoke to her that i want to that she takes a loan, so i get my bigger bills payed and some money for food. She said okay. She took loan and i pay 40 euros per month for her loan. Its such a big relief because now i got money for food.
Its now my second day without betting and now i got money in my hands. I’m feeling a little urge but i have self excluded myself from everything so, i’m excited and looking forward what i’ll do with the money. Because past 2 months every cent of my money is going for taxes or for betting! Thanks for positive mind and interest in my actions!