Micky, thank for your post.
I do get where you’re coming from with all your comments.
I didn’t mean J when I mentioned taking the piss mate I was referring to some other comments on the forum, I will post about this on my thread at some time in the coming days.
Please remember Micky I’m a CG just like you and everybody else here, sometimes I think that people forget that, I know that sometimes, I’m sorry to say, I behave like I’ve forgotten that. But I never have and I don’t want to. That has brought me crashing down in the past.
You are spot on though Micky I am saying exactly what you say, “I’ve done it why can’t you, you’re not trying hard enough”. The reason I go on like this Micky is that I have lost over thirty years of my life through gambling but I realise that I could have changed all those years ago, a lot of my frustration is aimed at my former self. I don’t want to see people endure years and years of trying and suffering before they finally do stop. Because there is just no need for it.
I do know how hard it is, I know how it keeps coming back and we trick ourselves that a one off bet will be ok. It’s never ok really though.
I hope life is treating you kindly Micky, I’m sorry that you didn’t get the support that you should have from the forum after the passing of your sister.
Micky I don’t gamble anymore, well not today, but I still have a lot of my gambling damage to contend with in my life. I live an honest life as much as I can the debts I have I’m afraid will never be paid off in my lifetime, so I avoid some of them. I’m not on the electoral roll, I havn’t paid my income tax for years, also I am a registered limited company for my work so I have corporation tax liabilities as well.
People might want to be where I am Micky, but my life isn’t a bed of roses. I live with my situation and I am in the process of getting my tax situation sorted but because of the situation I possibly could end up going back to jail. I can live with the situation though because I’ve learned to accept.
The words of the serenity prayer speak volumes, and when I found the serenity courage and wisdom, the penny dropped.
I hope that you start using the forum a bit more Micky, and even if I don’t comment on your thread a lot please be aware that I’ve read it and I know that you do want to change.
I did see pitfalls in you putting your pound a day in the jar, do you remember? But I took a lesson from that mate. I have jars of money in my place and I promise you it gave me a kick up the arse to go and put the money in the bank. Why was it ok for me to have excess cash lying about, but telling you it’s a stupid idea? I mightn’t have said that, but that’s what I thought to be honest, do you still do that?
I hope all your exclusions are still valid Micky, and I hope you havn’t really left the site.
Whether you’re on day one or day one thousand Micky its worth posting. The more you post the more support you will receive.
When your sister passed away Micky I promise you that I made a mental note to post back to you the following week and I got wrapped up in other things so I sincerely apologise for that.
I appreciate that you posted on my thread the other day and wrote what you did, it has brought me down a peg or two. It won’t be too long I dare say before my cocky know all attitude re-surfaces, I only ever mean well though Micky. I wish I knew all the answers, I don’t. I do know how long I gambled and I know how long I tried to stop. I know how I was able to stop and it wasn’t easy, I don’t find it too hard to stay stopped to be honest. But to get into this position cost me many many mistakes and many thousands of pounds, most of it was other peoples’ money. I just want to see people avoid this, because there was absolutely no need for it.
Thanks again for posting Micky. It has helped me a lot.