Hi Dajakesta
It’s great that you have started well,,
I really don’t like the thought of you watching other people playing….. it is a way the gambling addiction entice’s you back in. you need to admit that you can no longer watch or play ANY form of gambling,
I did the same as you and thought after 18 months of abstinence from gambling I could just watch poker and thought it was harmless, it allowed me to think I wasn’t playing so what’s the harm ?
but the thing I done without realising was allow gambling to be a part of my life again, it eventually led me to place a bet which in turn led to another and another and another ( the truth is I couldn’t win if I won I wanted to win more, if I lost I wanted to win back my losses) til I was back into full blown gambling like I had never stopped and eventually lost my business,
If I am serious at stopping I need to stay away from any form of gambling be it watching people on a fruit machine in a pub, watching tournaments on line or even playing with odds and fantasies in my head,,,, I suggest you do the same otherwise it will lead back to somewhere you really don’t want to go and you always sink to new levels, believe me your young and don’t want to take your life there. stop now whilst you have control and take that decision
good luck dude, I wish you well