P, I am glad that you are back and posting. Just get through today. I am praying for strength for all of us facing this addiction. I know what kind of person you are, awesome! It takes a lot of character to come back after gambling. We are always here for you as you are here for us. We are a family. I was asked recently why I continue to post here when I haven’t gambled for awhile. This is one of the reasons, I care about others here and I want to show my support. You are right, no one can understand the turmoil you are experiencing except another compulsive gambler. Put all you barriers up and gather all of your support around you. It will get better
