One day at a time CL. I too have gambled for a ling time and for more money than most. I can relate to you and empathize with your situation. Being a gambling addict sucks. No two ways about it. I’m not going to sit here and tell you that I have the magic secret that makes things better because I don’t. All I can say is that you can stop if you choose too. Stopping will not make you feel great. You won’t magically have the money back. All you can get back is you. It sounds like it’s time to stop fighting for the money, and start fighting for you. The you that is stronger than the urge to gamble. I hope you get what I’m trying to tell you. The money is gone…. You have to just let it go. It’s extremely hard. You are still here, therefore the only thing not gambling will win you is yourself back. And that’s pretty great. Once you regain who you are without gambling the rest will come back into place with time. It all starts with you brother. I hope that helps a little. 🙂
Jon