Gambling is a progressive disease. After every blow out, I told my self “it could be worse/ It’s only money” and I licked my wounds and moved on. Believe me, BBB, for as long as we gloss over our actions or divert from our gambling by consoling ourselves with co-incidental “perks”, all we are really doing is justifying our actions until the time comes when we will be desensitized to he point of numbness.
Engage the brakes before the “vehicle” shoots out of control.
Well done on your honesty and perseverance!