Hi Stephen, it is very normal to feel this way. Crying is ok and completely, normal. I was like this for a while but went to my gp eventually. It helped to tell a professional although I went without the antidepressants. There is also nothing to be ashamed about. None of us asked for this addiction, we just ended up and got caught by it. But we are not defined by it. When I say I lost six figures over five years I am not joking, I played to destitution. But I am alive and ok, I have friends on here who have supported and helped me. If you are able to join the groups where we often are on at the 10pm or 11pm ones. Go to charles facilitated groups for new members, next on Thursday. Take all the help that is there as we need the support. There are two things we need to accept. The first is that the money is gone, and the second is that we cannot gamble. It is a beast that will destroy us. When we accept that we can begin the process of recovery which is not easy but so worth it. I am praying for you.
