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I did not enjoy doing the binge drinking, gambling, eating or sex. I thought I would love doing it and wish for them but when I had the chance, I did not enjoy it at all, it was sick.

I was living a lie, they brought no value to my life except evil, harm, disgrace, shame, corruption, and destructions. 

I allow it to happen, it started small in the beginning, it is very subtle, sneaky and cunning before I self destruct completely.