[Monkey15]

Was really hard at work today, long meeting that I wasn’t able to focus on. Really worried about Xmas and no money for anything. Can’t expect everyone else to understand why I can’t share Xmas with them with gifts and food. I don’t want to have to tell friends and neighbours why this is missing this year. No energy, no money and mounting debt. Lots of self pity and remorse today and can’t ever seem to get enough sleep.