I was waiting all day for a phone call and it seems that the coordinator got the times mixed up and the counselor called at the time I was quoted but it was a different time zone. I saw a call that said restricted so I didn’t answer it. I then found a message which was good. So she and I are trying to find a time that works by doing messaging as her number is private so clients can not call directly. I understand.
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nI’m happy that i got to speak with a volunteer on live chat on this site as it helped me.
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nWriting in the journal is healthy and thx. for all who share.
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nI’m having visions of the machine that seemed to pay out. But it doesn’t pay out when you expect it to. It’s all chance. I often have been duped into thinking that this one machine or that one machine will help me but even when that machine kicked in I still would put the money back in or take it home and then go back eventually because it’s compulsive … I was in denial. I want to stop thinking about a few machines that gave me any kind of false ideas. There is not way to navigate slot machine pay. And for compulsive gamblers it eventually goes back in one way or another. I’ve been digging a hole…. Thank God , I have some sanity left and a chance to regroup. To feel for my losses is way to great to take on. I recognise the loss and the addiction and it’s serious… but it’s hard to feel to match the extent of the damage and loss… freestar
