Today I am 12 weeks gamble free.
I was just about to to set off to the Gordon Moody residential and I hadn’t even booked my flight because I wasn’t sure I could afford it- yet I was able to gamble that night.
I remember my first online counselling session to help me prepare for the residential.
I was on holiday and had been up all night and was feeling quite annoyed that I had to stop gambling for an hour ( at 11am) to go to the session. I was on a winning streak so of course I didn’t need the help because I was going to keep winning and sort everything out! I have no idea what the weather was like.
Somehow I left my beloved gambling for an hour and did the session with the counsellor – it was the best thing I ever did because her support, and a real sense of I would be letting her down (she was so nice and easy to connect with ) ensured I turned up at the actual residential.
I am back in that same holiday spot this weekend, staying in the same bed. I have slept well, bought lots of coal for the open fire, just ate a huge breakfast while still in my brand new snuggly Pjs, and I am making the most of an unusual burst of sunshine. The air is fresh and I am getting huge lungfuls of it.
In case you are wondering – I lost my huge win and a huge amount of my wages chasing it.
Today there is no huge win – instead there is money I earned honestly in the bank !
Onwards and upwards !