I had to stop and question my recovery. The recovery program does not control me like a robot. I was given a free will to make my choices in my life. Why does the recovery program give me a free will to relapse? It made me realize that my chances is not high on my own. My own strength never last, my will power and determination has a limit. I could never stay stop because on some days I have the power and strength, on some day I don’t.
My free will can choose to relapse but the recovery program keep prompting me and direct me back to recovery. It was my compass and GPS. I found out that I needed wisdom from a Higher Power to help me obey and made the right choice. I needed this strength from the Higher Power to help me give up my self will and resist any temptations.
Today it made me realize the good intention of the program, that I needed to take good care of my health so that I could travel further…. in recovery.