[I_Maverick]

So I just told my parents I have gambled again. I can’t see any future for me except for moving back in with them, and that makes me feel like such a failure. It’s not the money I have lost, though that matters. It is the time I have lost in the last 3 week, putting my business at risk, putting my wife and son away from me. I feel like part of me has done this to punish myself and I do not know why. I do not seem to know myself. I know I can get through the rest of my life without gambling, but I do not know how I am going to turn my life around. I can’t imagine feeling any different from this. All I feel is:

I lost my family, my son, my business. What more do I need to lose.