[Tinker bell]

The saddest thing is I’m sure he loves me as much as I love him , but the gambling messed it all and he ran away from his shame and guilt rather than address it , I hope in years to come he realises , it’s easier to run especially with a woman offering it in a plate , but it doesn’t and will never make it right , I’m trying to focus on me and my life , the loneliness has been awful but I work shifts at hospital and trying to plan eve with friends and family , and hopefully volunteering at soup kitchen x