Dear diary
I have recent experiences, I do not know how best to put them in words I can understand.
I knew I was doing something right now and it was protecting me.
I am heading in one direction now, but when someone or something is taking my eyes away from my objective and threaten to change my direction, it made me feel very uncomfortable and uneasy.
For example, when they are taking other people inventory, they are not focusing on their recovery or changing their life. I felt threaten and afraid they will derail my recovery, I have to walk away or reject them nicely.
Another example, when they do not want do the right thing to seek help, and threaten to do self- harm, my priority change, I felt like a hostage, they make me felt like it was my responsibility and I cannot walk away fearing something bad will happen to them.
I must learn to pray for them and let God handle it. I must continue to trust and let God control the steering wheel, not me. I must not panic and take back the control.
I start to lose my focus and gets very distracted. My center will shift to them and away from my God and my recovery program.
