Mourning yet another friend who passed away Sunday. Cancer. I stayed home from work yesterday and stayed in bed all day crying and drinking cosmopolitans. Feeling a bit better today. Except for the headache. lol Took another day off, today, but I got out of bed and no drinking. Yesterday, was supposed to be my Day 1 of starting exercising, eating better, drinking less. Didn’t work out as I planned. instead I spent the day putting poison into my body without hardly moving at all. I am not going to beat myself up, as this is a very sad and difficult time for me. People have been posting pictures of my friend on facebook, and I am in many of them. Tomorrow I will go back to work and function the best I can.
The last time I gambled was the middle of September. Also, in August. It was horrible how much damage I did during that time. Went right back into it. It scared me how quickly I accumulated a large gambling debt. I have been working to pay it back.
Putting one foot in front of the other is about all I can manage today.
