Morning Liz, to answer your previous question yes I have felt lonely even when with people. In my case sometimes I felt lonely when with my husband. Although that has improved a lot in the past several years, it isn’t a nice feeling. I often felt like that around co workers or at a social gathering. Like i’m always the one struggling to connect. Or to keep up a rapport. I can be shy and sometimes my anxiety will leave me tongue tied. But I’m working on it. I’ve made some new friends and they are very accepting of me. They have included me in their very social life and I struggle to make more connections with others.
I’m sure the experiences your friend is going through is bring back all kinds of terrible memories. I lost my father to cancer. 50 years my parents were married. And they were always together. Life goes on but I know she misses him so much each and every day. Hugs Liz. If you find it too hard you may have to tell your friend and put a little distance right now. You are human. I hope you do find a GA group and a different counselor. You are working through some deep stuff. I would tell your eldest about your relapse if you think there is something she can help you with, ie money control, someone to talk to when getting urges etc. But if she will not be part of your recovery support a little voice tells me she probably doesn’t need to know as it will only ever serve as something to be brought up and held against you. Just my thought and I’m sure you will do what is good for you and your daughter. Hope you have a lovely Sunday! Keep working through this Liz. You are getting there, progressing through the different layers of this illness. The road is never straight! Take care, Laura
