Morning Liz. Sometimes I wonder what I do with my time as I had missed the trouble you’ve been having. So so happy the rest of the gang is on the ball and was here to support you and make sure you knew how worthy you are. Abstaining is white knuckling, passing time but not really changing anything. I think you have learned a lot recently so please don’t look at this as though you have failed. You’ve been learning to stand up for yourself and represent yourself with your family and creditors. Now you need to add more recovery to the abstaining. More tools for the tool box. So that when you are close to being free to make more choices it doesn’t scare you back to gambling. Sometimes change and a more open slate can be scary. Because what do we really fill it with? I’m sure you thoughts go to your husband who you would have loved to travel with. I really hope that counseling and GA help you face all of that. You deserve the best Liz. Well done on moving forward. Progress not perfection. Laura xo
