Exercise and health
I have arranged for lung function to be done by docs before I can assess where I can go with exercise. I have had one walk in the park. I have signalled my desire to my Gp to cease all addictions, the primary one being the smokes.
Finances
Quite a lot here and I don’t mind being open about it, serves as a record
I have rung companies house who inform me that the revenue after two and a half years are still refusing to liquidate my company.
I have stopped a magistrates order from entering my home with the electricity board
I have emailed my financial inclusion officer from housing to notify her that 1.it is not possible to survive on the benefit I have. Internet goes soon so I will ring my son and ask him if he can pay this. The bedroom tax of 80 a month makes all the difference here. She is going to try and get me a grant to declare bankruptcy and also ask the bailiffs to back off. This would be a huge relief. I think part of my depressed mood this week has been around realising I cannotsurvive on benefits and the rather confronting situation I had with the bailiffs last Friday.
I have stopped court action from the tv licensing people but they want six pounds a week for the pleasure.
Self esteem
This has suffered. I was shocked with how I looked on the tv, ie slightly haunted with the shadows under the eyes. An early lesson for me was the effect of poverty on mental and physical health. I learned this as a child and then again all the way up to late thirties when very slowly over two decades steadily began to have a lot more money and by mid fifties had a lot of money.
Work
A couple of things s have come in but too far away and can’t afford the expense. I am Keeping my work options open. If something good comes up I will take it .
Social and relationships
I have arranged to see my daughter for dinner on my birthday where we will look at options going forward. Of everyone, my daughter gets it all. All the women in our family really get it and have a Lot,of emotional intelligence.
I am a bit,upset, amazing how these thins can bother you, and happen to me at least once a year. My sister has sent me a recorded delivery for my birthday which has not arrived and the post office have it as signed for. As peter griffin in family guy says this sort of thing really grinds my gears. It is being investigated though but will take three days.
So that is the plan,which is simple. Sometimes it seems like one step forward and one back but taking it one day at a time. The agitation of earlier has passed. I think I was very glad to speak to you own doctor who really is a wonderful person and a great role model. As any e who knows me, my role model portfolio in life has been a big like finding an oasis in a desert so if I was ever asked who do I look up to, it would be her.
