Monica, thanks for your post. I get everything that you are saying and I used to believe it. But I’ve lost my faith. I’ve been beaten down too many times. I don’t want to gamble. But I want to see results from being gamble free. I feel hollow and that I’m just existing not living. I am miserable. I do love my Grandchildren with all of my heart. That’s the only time I really feel anything. I can’t help anyone else as I am barely keeping my head above water. My Sister and I talked last night and I’m thinking again about selling my home and moving to the city. This would get me out of debt completely but with bad credit, where would I live? Every path there are roadblocks. I can’t find any clarity. I am stuck! Here in the states the creditors are more aggressive if you have assets they can seize. Some creditors wouldn t go on my debt repayment plan and I’m paying them separately. Sometimes my money can’t stretch that far. It’s become more than I can handle. Mentally and spiritually I’m drained and depleted. I’m tired and unmotivated. It’s a vicious cycle and I see no end in sight.
