Monica,
MY GA never mentioned steps – what put me off was feeling forced to speak – they went through the names on roll – and as I was the only female – I felt judged. it’s difficult to explain – it was like it was ok for them because their wives shoulda be standing by them , but I was bad because of what I am doing to my poor husband .
I know I did get something from it the first night when I listened to others – then it seemed to get too “controlling “.
Every time I think about GA not I think about the “Fat controller ” on Thomas the Tank , cos that kinda is what it was like- it kinda makes me giggle – maybe it is a character flaw after all but I do not like being controlled . Same on my thread – I don’t like others dictating to me what I should post or keeping track of how much I post .
Charles has suggested saying to “the controller ” that I don’t want to speak . Why can’t they just let people volunteer – and then if I I do speak I am not going to say that I am a Cg or any other rubbish – I will say I have a gambling addiction . There is a reason I am the only woman there and I don’t believe it is because I am the only female with this Compulsion.
Your partners rejection when you were ill must have hurt you to the core . It wasn’t about you but about his inability to deal with difficult circumstances . Any which way you deserved and deserve more that that . It is easy be someone’s partner when life is good – that’s why we take vows – in sickness and in health! It also is a form of control to kick someone when they are down – the more I read the more I am convinced that behind a huge percentage of people with gambling addiction there is a controlling, angry. “loved one” who nit-picks and find fault !
I am pleased with my last few posts on my thread. I feel I have addressed issues which in truth have been affecting my recovery for years . Some people makes snowballs behind the scenes for others to throw – and then step back smelling of roses – fool me once , shame on you – fool me twice , shame on me !!
Onwards and upwards Monica !