[Monica1]

Was not a good day. A lot just did t go right and I guess I am feeling a lot’of frustration. I had my meeting with my work coach and everything conspired so that I couldn’t go. I cried,with absolute frustration,with everything. It is really difficult when one day is good and the next is the exact oppposite. I find the swings in energy really,difficult,to deal with. Groups are very quiet and I am going to have to think about where to get,support. Very aware that I am nearly a year clean and no further forward in my life. No debts have been paid and I find myself getting depressed again. It sucks. Things are going to have to change, there have to be benefits to recovery but I am not seeing them today.