Mate, I am sorry but I know you will stop now. Your posts are terrifying, as I have done the same. It will only go backwards and forwards – up down left right down down down.
You are a good man with a family. Get back to GA, and focus your mind on this expereince. You won – you were up totally. And even though you knew through xperience that if you played again you would lose, because we all do (if we only won all the time it wouldn’t be called gambling it would be called free money).
What I think about now, which I never have done before, is that for me to win big at poker, many people have to lose. And what are their sitiations. Sure, they have chosen to play, but if they are CGs as well, that means I am enabling them. And I do not want that on my soul anymore. That actually helps me remember why not to play – do I want to take money that might be needed for their children? I don;t want to lose money needed for my child.
You are a star, you did 63 days – so you can do that again with interest.
Keep posting mate.