I too am awaiting my space at GM and can 100% understand your feelings Mark. I’m 47 and have relapsed so many times. Just lost my 3rd wife through my lying and deceitful ways. She’s a wonderful woman. Other family members are great too. But I have destroyed them Didn’t want to. Love them all. BUT this addiction will not go away. It’s the biggest, ugliest, most destructive thing in the world to me. I too attempted suicide. I too am desperate to get to GM. Hope to see you there. You are NOT alone. There are millions that share your illness.
