LOL yes Vera , I still ***** the days until payday.
12 days to go.
Actually your question has just made me realise I have always *****ed down to pay day. Usually it was to make sure I could survive, but more recently my focus has changed to not gambling.
I think maybe you were doing something similar during your long stint of gamble free time when you were planning your next PLAN deposit . It does actually motivate .
You question is interesting because it has shifted something in my head – Instead of going through the daily watching the clock for bingo and talking myself out of it , I have decided to wait until after payday . My big win will still be in the bingo hall! Lol.
Now I need sleep – I over indulged in the old alcohol last night – it is like gambling for me – once I start to drink I can’t stop .
However I don’t crave it, can easily go without it , and probably only drink maybe once a month .
Stil I hate the next day when I can’t remember parts of the night and I hate the guilty feeling I always have – like I have done something really bad. (Catholic guilt maybe ?). It’s also like gambling in that I wish I could have one or two like others seem to and then stop.
I also wish I could drink a “lighter” drink because when I try to drink something with lower alcohol it just makes me want a stronger hit. So many similarities to gambling .
That’s about it – need sleep.