Liz thanks for your post and anytime you post to my thread you are never taking up my post. It is challenging when the person we want to be there for us the most is not there. It is a difficult thing to deal with. We sometimes just need someone to lean on and provide emotional support to us and I know that for me my mother was always there for me in that way. It would not matter what I did she would always be there for me. I realize now that I am older that my Dad loved me in his own way, but it has taken years for me to realize that. He was the strict disciplinarian and had a gambling addiction and his was betting on the horses. I hated him for years because of it. There were times we could not get things as he had to have his gambling money. I believe that I was given this addiction so that I could forgive my Dad. Life is strange at times.
I am finding it interesting how the negative thought pattern impacts us and I am not just talking about with gambling. I have done quite a bit with sorting my boxes and organizing things in the basement, but I don’t take time to say a positive word to myself in my head. It’s still negative thinking about I need to get off my but and go through the stuff still to be done and get it finished. I have probably done about 60% of it, but I don’t look at that, I look at what I still have to do. I know that I will get it done. I also need to get out this weekend and do some weeding and plant some flowers. I know that I will feel so much better if I do it. I love to have it looking nice, but I don’t like the work associated with it, even though the exercise is good for me. It is two fold I am getting older and I don’t have the stamina to keep going as I did when I was 30 and also being overweight and out of shape does not help. I work full time plus and I am wanting the basement finished. Well, I can only do what I can do, so I will take it one day at a time and I will get there. I do not plan on gambling today. Wishing everyone a gamble free day!!!
