Liz I read your post last night and I was just thinking about how you posted about going to Church on Sunday. I don’t know why but for a while I was going most Sundays and then I stopped again. I feel so much better when I go, but sometimes I just seem to get reclusive, which really is not my normal self. I need to get our more and socialize not just through work. I do a lot of networking at work and I find that sometimes when I get home I don’t want to talk to anyone. I wonder if that is the reason. I have to say that is one of the things that scares me about retiring is missing the social interaction. I know that there are lots of opportunities out there though, but sometimes it’s getting the head round making the commitment.
I think it will be good for you to go out and meet people who understand what it is like to lose a spouse.
I have to say that I admire how well you are dealing with your daughters. I cant imagine how challenging that is for you. I know that when I was younger and my brother who had a drinking problem got into trouble, it was nothing serious, but there was always something. I saw the stress it caused my Mum and I saw her heart was breaking. I dealt with it by putting a barrier around myself as I could not deal with it. I wish I had shown my Mum more compassion to help her deal with it. We always teased her about my brother, her first born and we would say “blue eyes” cant do anything wrong!!! I do have some good memories from childhood, but like all families we were far from perfect. Thanks for letting me share these with you Liz. Have a wonderful gamble free day!!! Do something nice just for you Liz as you do deserve it!!!
