Liz. I just had a huge fight with my partner.Things are bad between us. Over the car and and gambling. The ps4 also came into it. She said, nearly every month I buy and sale the fucking ps4. It costs me money. Why didnt I get something for the house.. I think I will give my son the playstation to keep at his mothers. I cant sell it for cash and he will always have it. Maybe I kept it in my house because I know if I gambled I could get quick cash. I need to think on changing a few small things to help me with gambling.
Liz. I also know Im not happy in this house. Sometimes I dont want to come home. My next neighbour is mentlally ill. He keeps banging on the walls and screaming.This happens night and day. I cant do anything about it. I have reported it to the police etc but they said there is nothing I can do. I have let things build up inside me and used gambling as means to escape. I have to learn to deal with problems like any normal person. I used gambling as a means of escape for years and this is wrong. I need to learn to stop and think that gambling doesnt solve any suituation. It makes matters worse. I honestly think gambling was my way of hurting myself. and why …because I never liked me.
Each person has a wish to stop gambling….My wish is to be a little bit stonger each month so i can resist gambling………goodnite. 6.30 bus here I go