Lisbeth, do what’s right for you.
When we are hurt it is difficult to participate – and for most people others do have the power to hurt us- especially people we expect we can trust – unless like your mum, we shut down emotionally. For me I would rather be a warm and loving person ( which leaves us exposed to feeling hurt when Others hurt us ) than closed down. You feel hurt because you are a warm person Lizbeth with a great capacity to love.
I believe emotionally shut down people simply don’t feel enough to understand that they may be wrong – they just don’t have that capacity . In many ways they are to be pitied more that blamed .
However , it may be that the sooner this is sorted the better you feel . Well done on saying no that that casino . Xx